It is not that my ego is so big and self-focused that I can’t/don’t/won’t admire people. I do. I admire LOTS of people in the public domain (P.T. Barnum, William Seward, The Clinton Family, The Cuomo Family, etc.) and in my personal life I have a handful of people that have proven to be admirable and remarkable and inspiring all at the same time.
That was a terrible blow to my 17 year old psyche. It was a huge set back. My hero, who had shown me so many possibilities in my life and had done so much despite his weight left me only to scratch my head at what the realities of being obese are. I was sad for my loss and scared for my future.